I hesitate to write this post, and I am even more hesitant to publish it. Not because I can’t but because I know I have to. I want to, I do, but I am terrified of the end results.
Yet… I am going to publish this, all about who I am as a person. I am a writer, and passionate about the person I am and the person I can become, a proud beautiful person who has something to say and to share.
This blog post all began with a challenge. I suspect in an effort to get me out of my rut with writing even more, I was asked to post a few things about myself. Some things most people would not know about me, and some of my feelings about them.
1. I love various TV shows. Sherlock, Star Trek, Quantum Leap, Transformers, you name it I’ve probably seen it. I like some— the show Elementary comes to mind, but I watch them on occasion, I enjoy them but I won’t go out of my way to see them. I also watch too many documentaries to count if you have seen Life After People, you’ll know what I’m talking about.
I’m a TV nut, it allows me to breakaway from writing for a bit and allows my mind to think up more ideas. I love coming up with ideas mid news show that I can share with my readers on my blog.
2. I love to sing- badly I might add, but I love to sing. Give me a melody and I’ll hum it all day if I could. I like to write, but that goes without saying, I need to have music at some point during the day to help me work. The best is Motown- always will be in my mind. Writing is my great love, and I enjoy it, and it is a part of me.
I have a wonderful group of people writing with me, and they have improved this blog. It’s a melody I hope never ends, writing is a big part of my life as much as singing is, but I know I won’t make money as a singer.
3. I’m a lesbian. If this one fact about me, makes you uncomfortable, so be it, I’ve already had my fair share of insults and slurs because of it… so see the above to points to understand I am human.
I don’t have a reason to be mean to others, as a matter of course I would hope I am a good person. That and I think I am awesome- but I am a lesbian, it doesn’t affect who I am as a writer. This added fact makes me want to succeed more than anything else in the world. I am human, I write, and I just happen to have some wonderful readers.
Why do I write? Because of you my readers.
The more I realize that once this blog post is published, I’ve laid it out a lot of me- it’s personal now. In a sense this will break me out of my writing stagnation. I know that people will like it, or they won’t but the point is, this is what publishing is about: being scared and taking a risk.
This is what panics me, and yet, I hope that it inspires you to write and to be bold.
Somes times, even publishing gives me panic attacks, but it means that it’s my turn to follow my dreams, and be a better person and writer.
There is one person who inspired me to write and publish this, so to my writing partner in crime Jordan, you will have to give him my thanks.